snowy

tapestry

a peaceful occupation

my last one:

cycling

Cycling along yesterday and I was reminded what a privilege it is to be here, now.

It is the tail end of Autumn and it's easy to feel gloomy in these short grey days, but today, even though the sun was watery and the trees were bare ... the sky was bright and the branches make interesting shapes against it ...

I live in the city but ridiculously close to fields full of wildlife and ponies; air by the canal is clear and sweet.

Blessings.

pull it back on

So, yes, it was NOT good news from the scans in October.

Yes, we do need all our resolve again.

And yes, I will be resolved and not lose sight of the amazing privilege it is to have my life regardless of illness ..

I am well provided for in financial and emotional ways and really couldn't ask for more.


What will be will be ... .... ....

gosh

It is over a year since I wrote in here, which isn't to say I've not been continuing my efforts -- just not recorded them.


Just now I am feeling very scared and shakey. CT scan results due tomorrow and my tried and tested coping strategies seem to have left the building.

If it is bad news I will have to pull them back in and put them to use. Meanwhile I have been trying to stay calm.

Breathing.

A great thing!